The Other Exit

I was an inmate to the incomprehensible
Self harming by staying when escape was so simple
Regretting not restraining from repeated coition and trying to rekindle
Adopting one of her traits and turning into a low self-esteem imbecile
She embodied everything I happened to not be – so cynical
Time and again thought of leaving but didn’t and stayed there detesting myself, explains why i didn’t love her because I had stopped loving myself
And since I was alone in the room with her she became convenient, It became habitual and looking back I definitely needed help
but I was so helpless her sinister acts became the only help
And now im free though left helpless at least I hurt less
All that lingers are the nightmares of withdrawal when she haunts me
But everyday brings excitement as I embrace exiting enigma.

© Heath Muchena, 2009

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