Unsettled

autumn night backyard garden sit-down
gives a nostalgia
of the time back at Carne Place, in Port Solent
where I rented a small space by the water
with my best friend

and I had a lover
other than that, not much else…
still, I lived by the gods’ graces

but there I made love atop the stairs, and in the garden…
smoked haze and wrote poems and plays when I wasn’t working or having a laze
that was the routine, the pattern

then I decided I needed a change
and even shed tears when I left her

and so many years later
on this autumn night garden sit-down

I’m reminded of those unsettled carefree days

the paradox

 

© Heath Muchena, 2015

 

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