Petals & Blades iv

There was no shielding his personality from the uncompromising scrutiny. He felt exposed – as though his head was impaled on a pike and displayed in public. He had less, in fact, no more support left… like petals with no calyx.

But that wasn’t all. He had also lost everything he’d invested in securities and bonds, and felt he had no one to blame, not the Black-Scholes equation, not even Robert Dall. Felt it would never be the same again and had no faith or foresight left in him to imagine or wonder if he’d ever see an end to the deep and dark disdain. Felt it was now just all pain and no gain. Life had become one hell of a losing game. He felt ashamed.

And his existence seemed to mirror his feelings on life’s stage.
 

© Heath Muchena, 2016

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